A new look on life.

For me, the last couple of weeks, maybe even months have really opened my eyes. For one, I'm almost 30 years old, and I never thought about me. Since I was 20-21 people have always come before myself. And I've really just now begun to realize I need to find some time for me.

I'm not the greatest wife, mother, or housekeeper. In the last 7 years that I've had my kids, I know I haven't done enough with them, so I wanted to take this summer off, just to spend time with them. To get all of us off the TVs and computers. To go out and ride our bikes, and run in the sprinkler. Yet I haven't done it. Not that I haven't tried, but when my son is so stubborn, like me, I get frustrated, and like my son, I just say forget it. I've been trying really hard to work on that. I don't want him to turn out like me and not do anything in life. I think that's why I applied for this job at the zoo. Not just because I love animals and have always wanted to work there, but to get out, be disappointed if I don't get the job. I have to open myself up again.

I know I'm rambling, just thoughts floating through my head.