Fashionista!!!

So Kayla is my little fashionista. As soon as I find my camera you can see what I'm talking about. About 6 months ago, I bought some bright red nail polish, and a mauve one also, just to play around with. Kayla wanted her nails painted just like mom's so I painted them. She ended up loving it. So every time they started to come off, she would remind, that I needed to repaint them. But instead of just all red, or all mauve. Nope, not my girl. She wanted each nail a different color. So about a month ago, we went into Walgreen's, and Kayla saw some more nail polish, of course she has her daddy wrapped around her little finger, and he let her buy two more. But this time they were bright orange and neon green. Cute colors, I have to admit, even I painted my toes the orange. But my lovely daughter didn't go just for the one color, she had to use all 4 colors. One on each nail. Today I was painting them, and she goes, "Mom, do you think daddy would let me buy one more, so I can have a different color on all my nails?" I had to laugh. But that's not the worse about my little fashionista, she will not match her clothes for anything. I buy things that will match, and she will put her pink and white top, with her flowered green and white shorts, and on top of that, she will pull her socks all the way to her knees and add her funky colored tennis shoes on. I so need a picture, it's hard to get a clear idea of what I'm talking about until you see it. I will try and find my camera today. It's to funny.

Heart on my sleeve...

I hate to be one of those emotional people, that gets their feelings hurt easliy. But unforunatley, I am. I cry, when Ralph picks on me to much. I cry at stupid stuff on the tv. But I think what tops the cake has gradually happened over the years. And the worse thing, it's things my own family have done to me. I won't metion names, the don't read this, but still, I know my family all to well. My feelings got really hurt on Zachs b-day, I put it on facebook, wishing him and my brother-in-law a happy b-day, but this person only said happy birthday to my brother-in-law. What about your nephew??? Just talking about it, I get tears in my eyes. I know it's stupid. And now, my sisters birthday was yesterday on the 25th, and one of this persons kids, wished my sister a happy birthday to the best aunt ever!! What am I chopped liver??? I know it's stupid to get upset, but it hurts. And I don't know what to do about it.

A new look on life.

For me, the last couple of weeks, maybe even months have really opened my eyes. For one, I'm almost 30 years old, and I never thought about me. Since I was 20-21 people have always come before myself. And I've really just now begun to realize I need to find some time for me.

I'm not the greatest wife, mother, or housekeeper. In the last 7 years that I've had my kids, I know I haven't done enough with them, so I wanted to take this summer off, just to spend time with them. To get all of us off the TVs and computers. To go out and ride our bikes, and run in the sprinkler. Yet I haven't done it. Not that I haven't tried, but when my son is so stubborn, like me, I get frustrated, and like my son, I just say forget it. I've been trying really hard to work on that. I don't want him to turn out like me and not do anything in life. I think that's why I applied for this job at the zoo. Not just because I love animals and have always wanted to work there, but to get out, be disappointed if I don't get the job. I have to open myself up again.

I know I'm rambling, just thoughts floating through my head.

It's offical

I no longer have a "baby" girl. According to her, she is all grown up. Yesterday was a happy but sad day. I managed to get Kayla registered for school. Can I take it back?? Can I wait another year?? Please? Even if I could, I don't think Kayla would let me. She is so ready to go to school so she can learn. All of the 1st grade had an Easter party at school today. Kayla couldn't go on the egg hunt so we bought her, her own bag of candy, which is was thrilled with. But after the egg hunt the kids got to go play. Zach asked Kayla if she wanted to go play, and off she went. Not a worry in the world, and to no surprise, she made friends like it was nothing. As much as I hate to see my "Baby" grow up, I'm so proud of her. She is a little rotten girl, but so lovable.

Kayla-

My darling daughter, how much I love you. I can't believe how these almost 6 years have flown by. I don't know where they went, but I wish I could get them back. I had so much planned for you, but not nearly enough time. You are my world, sweet girl, and I wish you the best of luck in all that you do. Just know that mommy and daddy will always be here for you and that we love you dearly.

Love,
Mom

almost 1 month

So it's been almost a month since I started this challenge with my family, and while everybody else is losing the weight, the 5 lbs I was so excited about, I've gained 4 back. What gives?? I'm not eating badly, I could do better. I've been walking 5 days a week, and throwing my zumba and boxing in 2 times a week. It's so not fair. I can tell I'm toning up a little in my legs and butt though. So that's a plus. I'm not giving up on this, it's just very annyoing. In 28 days my baby boy will be 7 years old. I can't believe how time flies. Here in about a week, I have register Kayla in school. I'm not looking forward to that. Not only am I losing my baby girl to school, I'm going to go back to work. YIKES! I haven't worked in almost 6 years. That's scary, but I do have a friend, that said he would try to hook me up with a job, in a nursing home, just doing the laundry, and light house keeping. I hope he can when it actually comes to it.

Finish what I started...

Okay. So I meant to finish my post the other night, but could barely keep my eyes open. Yikes. I was so happy I lost 1 and 1/2 pounds, but now I'm not sure. My scale kept jumping from 10lbs lost to 20lbs lost. I know I didn't loose that much. So I went out and bought an old school scale. I don't know what they are called. And it showed that I hadn't lost anything. Boo-Hoo. But tell me this, which scale do I believe. I put a 20lb weight on each scale. And the only difference between the two, was 4 oz. So why is one scale making me so light and the other not?? LOL
I know the new "old school" is probably right, but I'm keeping my digital, just because it's showing I've lost so much, and kind of keeps me motivated. I see nothing wrong with that.

So I've been pretty good at walking 5 miles 4-5 days a week. I walk on the treadmill and go at 3.0 mph and at a 3 incline. But it's getting pretty easy, so I don't know if I should step it up or not. I'm also back on my ab circle, even though I'm still scared of the stupid thing, most days I can do at least half of what it says. On the 2 days that I don't walk, I've been do 20 minutes of Zumba on the Will and a little punching on my bag. I tried to do 45 minutes today on the Zumba, but I don't really have enough room in the play room to do it. I'm going to have to rearrange things.

But anyway, just thought I'd catch everybody up. We decided not to do the blog, and just leave each other private messages on fb. Sorry, ya'll are stuck with me.

1ST Week

So I'm happy to report that its my first occial week to have the weight contest with my family. As of about 10:35 I was down 1.5 pounds. YAY me! It's not much, but I will take anything.